Living Purposed

Hitting a Brick Wall

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I have been experiencing a bit of writers block lately, to be honest writing this intro is a struggle in itself.  Nothing is flowing and none of my ideas seem to come to life when I put my fingers to my keyboard. I started to write about the Presidential election but my thoughts on that would take a book.  I was going to tell you guys all about my new haircut, but as much as I love it,  I couldn’t bring myself to write about it…. yet.   I even got desperate and took pictures of produce in Whole Food’s today, thinking it would spark something (that post really is coming though, I love Whole Foods!)  Usually my writers block is caused by a thick fog of thoughts that need to be cleared from my mind. How do I do that? One of two ways, I either talk through my thoughts with someone (Jesus, included) or I simply write them. 

Writing my thoughts out always provides freedom in a sense that my Mac book can’t talk back.  So I decided to share my latest “thought dump” with you .  The Purposed Culture is not meant to be a “personal blog” however as the curator of this wonderful platform,  I think it is important to open up and share real life experiences in hopes that TPC becomes a community of like minded individuals. Furthermore, I imagine we could all use a thought dump during this pivotal time and if you don’t do one of your own maybe you can relate to mine. So here it is, raw, unedited as they come – thoughts…

Nov 10, 2016 @ 10:32 pm

My mind is all over the place.  There is a constant tug of war with where I want to be in my life and where I currently am.  I often think about my purpose and get overwhelmed.  There are so many things I am called to accomplish and I feel as if I am running out of time. Everyday passes and I don’t feel as if I have moved far enough in my journey. My mind is constantly moving faster than my physical and it’s frustrating to say the least.  When I think about my life and what it is to look like over the next several years I feel a sense of peace, followed by numbing anxiousness – too numb to take the steps necessary to reach the image of my older, wiser self. However, I know I must move even when it is uncomfortable and seems impossible.  I must shake my own blues.  I struggle with this world because so much of it is false and ugly. So much of it is placed on the stilts of society. I crave a pureness and realize that I must find it in myself through my Savior. I will not find it on social media or in the movies. I will only find it, where I create it and where it already exists. Older self, I am coming for you!  I am coming to join you, to be you, to be me! – grounded in my identity as a child of God, as a pillar of purpose and integrity, as a safe haven and as the image I constantly see in my head.

I felt 10 times lighter after writing that and gained perspective. At the end you can see,  I gained confidence and positive momentum which is always the goal; giving my thought dump major purpose.  I am now ready to move forward and continue to create purposeful content for you guys!  Can you relate to my dump? Have you ever done a thought dump?  Share below!

with purpose, Sydnie

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11 Comments

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    Jasmine Stinson
    November 15, 2016 at 8:33 AM

    Beautiful dump that was! I can def relate! Thanks for sharing!

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      Sydnie Spivery
      November 15, 2016 at 10:01 AM

      Thank you my purposed sister 🙂

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    Drew Holden
    November 15, 2016 at 8:57 AM

    Amazing entry! I find myself wrestling with the same tension that exists in the gap between where I am and where I want to be–trying to embrace each moment so that Tomorrow’s Drew can give his nod of approval. One thing that reinforces God’s peace in me is knowing that He’s with me–ever ready to redeem the perceived delays of time as He graces me to obey. I want my journey to be consumed with doing His will for my life, and I’m learning more and more how much walking that path is a product of moment-by-moment intimacy with Him. Hopefully, I’ll get out of my own way and get there soon…

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      Sydnie Spivery
      November 15, 2016 at 10:02 AM

      Thank you for sharing Drew, I am in agreement with you as you continue to pursue his will for your life and rest in his grace to get out of your own way!

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    Rob
    November 15, 2016 at 9:07 AM

    We all hit that wall from time to time but we find ways to get around or over it and when we get the mind set we just go right through it. I can do all things through CHRIST which _____ me, you fill in the blank. KEEP ON PUSHING!

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      Sydnie Spivery
      November 15, 2016 at 10:03 AM

      “strengthens” me Thank you for sharing, Rob 🙂

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    Marcia
    November 15, 2016 at 12:24 PM

    Thanks for sharing,your technique. I use a personal journal…to get things sorted out some times pictures come to my mind also…
    If I journal for a few mins…at times I hear what’s needed next to do in my daily,weekly even monthly purpose….it’s me and the Holy Spirit…

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    Marcia
    November 15, 2016 at 12:29 PM

    Hi, How can,I post your entry today on my Facebook,page….want to,share.

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      Sydnie Spivery
      November 15, 2016 at 3:46 PM

      That is a great way to spend time with the Holy Spirit. You can share by clicking on the facebook icon at the end of the post.

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    Bunmi Ejide
    December 7, 2016 at 11:28 AM

    Exact sentiments! Beautifully said. Thanks Syd!

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      Sydnie Spivery
      December 8, 2016 at 9:13 PM

      Glad it resonated with you!

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