I have been experiencing a bit of writers block lately, to be honest writing this intro is a struggle in itself. Nothing is flowing and none of my ideas seem to come to life when I put my fingers to my keyboard. I started to write about the Presidential election but my thoughts on that would take a book. I was going to tell you guys all about my new haircut, but as much as I love it, I couldn’t bring myself to write about it…. yet. I even got desperate and took pictures of produce in Whole Food’s today, thinking it would spark something (that post really is coming though, I love Whole Foods!) Usually my writers block is caused by a thick fog of thoughts that need to be cleared from my mind. How do I do that? One of two ways, I either talk through my thoughts with someone (Jesus, included) or I simply write them.
Writing my thoughts out always provides freedom in a sense that my Mac book can’t talk back. So I decided to share my latest “thought dump” with you . The Purposed Culture is not meant to be a “personal blog” however as the curator of this wonderful platform, I think it is important to open up and share real life experiences in hopes that TPC becomes a community of like minded individuals. Furthermore, I imagine we could all use a thought dump during this pivotal time and if you don’t do one of your own maybe you can relate to mine. So here it is, raw, unedited as they come – thoughts…
Nov 10, 2016 @ 10:32 pm
My mind is all over the place. There is a constant tug of war with where I want to be in my life and where I currently am. I often think about my purpose and get overwhelmed. There are so many things I am called to accomplish and I feel as if I am running out of time. Everyday passes and I don’t feel as if I have moved far enough in my journey. My mind is constantly moving faster than my physical and it’s frustrating to say the least. When I think about my life and what it is to look like over the next several years I feel a sense of peace, followed by numbing anxiousness – too numb to take the steps necessary to reach the image of my older, wiser self. However, I know I must move even when it is uncomfortable and seems impossible. I must shake my own blues. I struggle with this world because so much of it is false and ugly. So much of it is placed on the stilts of society. I crave a pureness and realize that I must find it in myself through my Savior. I will not find it on social media or in the movies. I will only find it, where I create it and where it already exists. Older self, I am coming for you! I am coming to join you, to be you, to be me! – grounded in my identity as a child of God, as a pillar of purpose and integrity, as a safe haven and as the image I constantly see in my head.
I felt 10 times lighter after writing that and gained perspective. At the end you can see, I gained confidence and positive momentum which is always the goal; giving my thought dump major purpose. I am now ready to move forward and continue to create purposeful content for you guys! Can you relate to my dump? Have you ever done a thought dump? Share below!
with purpose, Sydnie